I got to the hospital at 11:45 and didn't get back to the surgery unit until 1:15. I will be honest and say I was having a rough time holding it together emotionally. I was completely exhausted. We got to the waiting room and they told me that Brian would need to stay in the waiting room while they prepped me. The nurse took me back and got me behind the curtain and I lost it. I just cried. The nurse was so sweet and said, "Change of plans. Do you want me to go get your husband?" "Oh please yes", I said. I was so thankful Brian could be right by my side.
I read the chapter for the day in "Jesus Calling" which was awesome. If you don't have this devotional you should get it. It's amazing and has brought me such comfort since we lost Jonathan. Dr. T gave us his copy when we were leaving the hospital the day after I delivered. For 2 weeks straight every single day we read it, I was blown away by the message it brought us. It was like it was written for us. Today's was no exception.
Then Brian read Psalm 18 to me, all 50 verses of it. It's too long to post, but here are some of my favorite verses.1 I love you, O LORD, my strength.
2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
3 I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
and I am saved from my enemies.
4 The cords of death entangled me;
the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.
5 The cords of the grave coiled around me;
the snares of death confronted me.
6 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came before him, into his ears.
The surgery went well. Brian told me it took a tad bit longer than he expected. He was starting to get nervous that Dr. T hadn't come out yet. Finally he did and told Brian that he was able to get the mass out. He told him it looked like there might have been a bit of left over placenta in there surrounded by a clot. He will send it to pathology so we can hopefully get a better clue as to what it was for sure and what caused it. Dr. T told Brian that in some women this is a one time thing and in other women it's an ongoing problem. I'm believing God that this was a one time thing and that I won't have to deal with this again. I go back in a week to follow up and talk to him more about what he found since I was out of it to talk to him myself.
I woke up around 3:30 in recovery and to be honest felt horrible. It was awful. Anesthesia and I are not good friends and I pray I never have to see him again. I'm really tired and a dealing with a little nausea, but so happy to be home. I am so thankful that the Lord answered my prayers and the prayers of His people for a safe surgery. I pray that I can get some rest and finally be able to recover and feel better.
I'm going to try to eat something for the first time today and go back to bed and get some rest. Thank you again for your prayers. Have a wonderful night. I know I plan too.
10 comments:
Oh Krista, I am so sorry you have to face yet another hurdle in the race. I have been away from the blogging world for almost a week and just stopped by today to see any updates, little did I know I'd find out about these complications. I am wishing I was close to help with the girls, bring food, sit with you when Brian needs a break, or just whatever you need. I pray that you have plenty of people around to do it for me! Please let me know if there is anyting I can do from here. Love you.
Have been thinking about you and praying all day...
Your faith through all of this is such a testimony to all. Thank you for your "realness." I know God is using you in Big ways and your are right that your story is not finished. He has big plans for you. We will continue to lift you up. Anything you need? The offer to watch the girls is always there so just let me know. I would love to have some girls in my house for a little while! Praying for God's rest and peace on you.
I am so sorry for your loss. I came across your blog from Kellyskorner. It seems we have much in commom. I too lost a son right around the same week as you lost your Jonathan and I had 2 girls at the time ages 5 and 3. It has almost two years since that awful day but Saturday we are celebrating our 3rd daughter's 1st birthday. I know what you are going through right now and you are in my prayers.
oh sweet girl, praying for you, even if I don't know you!
So glad that everything went well!! Still praying for you! Going to update everyone that's been asking about you & praying for you! Love you girl!
Praying you feel much better soon! Been thinking of you all day today. I read Psalm 18 this morning too. What a blessing those verses are!
So glad to hear that the surgery went well...sending our love and prayers your way from Colorado. Wish we could be there to help in some way. Hope that your recovery from the surgery goes quickly
Hi. I read about you on kellyskorner. I'm so sorry for what you're having to go through. I lost a baby at 17 weeks and one at 13 weeks and another at 20 weeks. I went to a fertility specialist and he performed many tests and found that I have a blood clotting disorder. When you are pregnant your blood thickens anyway and when you have a blood clotting disorder is can actually thicken the blood that flows through the Placenta so much so that it cuts off oxygen to the baby. So once I got prenant again, he started me on Heparin (blood thinner) shots twice a day every day while I was pregnant and I had my beautiful baby girl 2 months ago!
continuing to pray for you Krista. I pray that the Lord will just manifest Himself to you and your family in a powerful way. One that will just leave breathless.
Lifting you up and praising God that you didn't have the disorder that they thought was possible.
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