I received my sons birth certificate in the mail. As soon as I saw the envelope I knew what was in it. I remember getting this same envelope almost 6 years ago.
I eagerly opened it up. There it was in bold, black ink.
Jonathan Andrew Lord
Born to Brian Lord & Krista Renae Lord
Born August 12, 2010 at 4:44 p.m.
I just kept staring at it. I was not supposed to receive this piece of paper until January, but now I find myself in an all to familiar place. I put his birth certificate in the knitted bag the hospital gave me along with his blanket and hat. Jonathan's bag sits right next to his sister Zoe's neatly in our closet. Right now it's too hard for me to go through everything in there, but I know one day in the future it will bring comfort to me. Oh how I wish I had them both here in my arms and not reminders of them in a little bag. Oh dear Lord this is not what I had planned, but I know you have known this from the beginning of time so I rest in the fact that one day this ugliness will be Redeemed for your glory.
I am so thankful that our hospital gives parents that have suffered a loss of a baby a birth certificate. It means so much to me that they recognize my baby's life. He had meaning and a purpose and he is my son.
About Me
- Krista
- I'm a native Southern California girl now living in the South. I'm a wife and mom of 4 kids, 2 in Heaven. I traveled the country with my sisters as Christian Recording artists but gave it all up to be a mom. I love jazz music, interior design and movie nights with my family. I'm passionate about homeschooling and nutrition. I make a mean green smoothie. Most importantly, I'm a daughter of the King.
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4 comments:
Sweet words my friend, I love that the hospital honored his birth. I'm praying for you still, knowing that after loss, when everybody goes back to their normal life....a grieving mother must learn a new normal. One marked with
full emotions but empty arms.
April
Eight years ago I lost my fist son in utero to anencephaly. He had a brain stem but that's it. I was 20 weeks and induced. It's 100 percent fatality so more dangerous for me to carry out the pregnancy full term. We took a lot of pictures of our son and we also got a birth certificate and of course cards from friends. My x husband wrote a birth story for our son and I created a scrap book for him. I feel like a little piece of him is there anytime I want to look at it. I also have shown it to his older sister. She is nine. I don't know what you have, but I love having his scrapbook. His name was Chance Passing.
Krista,
I am just now catching up on your blog and cannot believe what I am reading. I am so so so so so so so so unbelievably sorry! So so so so so so so sorry . . .
Oh Heavenly Father,
Please comfort my friend Krista and her family as they experience the loss of another precious one. Bring them peace that passes all understanding and allow them to feel your loving presence as they mourn. Surround them with the body of Christ that will be extensions of your love and provision. Guard and protect them from the enemy who desires to steal, kill, and destroy everything that you have given them and done in them. Be glorified even now in their pain and bring swift healing to their broken hearts. May joy come very very soon again.
In Jesus' Precious, Beautiful, Matchless Name,
Amen
Krista, I'm so sorry and will continue to pray for you and your family.
In His Hands, Your sister in Christ,
Katy
I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss! We lost out sixth child, at seventeen weeks, on July 31st. We were, and still are, devastated. I'm so sad for me, for my husband, and for our kids! My older ones keep asking me if we can please, please have another baby and the little ones keep asking where the baby is. It's so hard! But, I too am blessed to know of God's perfect will and timing and try to remain content knowing He has a plan for me and our family.
I wish you a fast and full recovery from your surgery and every blessing in the future!
Hugs,
Michelle
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