I received my sons birth certificate in the mail. As soon as I saw the envelope I knew what was in it. I remember getting this same envelope almost 6 years ago.
I eagerly opened it up. There it was in bold, black ink.
Jonathan Andrew Lord
Born to Brian Lord & Krista Renae Lord
Born August 12, 2010 at 4:44 p.m.
I just kept staring at it. I was not supposed to receive this piece of paper until January, but now I find myself in an all to familiar place. I put his birth certificate in the knitted bag the hospital gave me along with his blanket and hat. Jonathan's bag sits right next to his sister Zoe's neatly in our closet. Right now it's too hard for me to go through everything in there, but I know one day in the future it will bring comfort to me. Oh how I wish I had them both here in my arms and not reminders of them in a little bag. Oh dear Lord this is not what I had planned, but I know you have known this from the beginning of time so I rest in the fact that one day this ugliness will be Redeemed for your glory.
I am so thankful that our hospital gives parents that have suffered a loss of a baby a birth certificate. It means so much to me that they recognize my baby's life. He had meaning and a purpose and he is my son.