Hand in hand I walk into the maternity wing of the hospital with my hubby. We are both smiling from ear to ear. Today is the day I will give birth to our son. We are overjoyed. We have prayed for over two years for a son and today we will see his sweet face.
I can't wait for the girls to meet their brother. For 9 months that is all they have been talking about. They have felt him kick inside of me and have sung to him everyday. Their "Big Sister" shirts are laid out on their beds all ready to go. They are so excited. Nana and Papa will bring them to the hospital in just a few hours. I can't believe we'll soon be a family of 5. I know some people say it's difficult to go from 2 to 3 children, but I say bring it on.
Family and friends start arriving at the hospital waiting to meet our bundle of joy. I'm given my epidural and wheeled back into the operating room where I will have my c-section. It's old hat since I've been down this road twice before. Brian comes walking in with his blue jumpsuit on looking oh so dapper. He squeezes my hand ever so gently and says, "I love you babe and I'm so proud of you". I start to shake with the anticipation of finally, well that and the fact that I can't feel my body from my chest down. Finally after all the tugging and pulling my dr shouts, "Congratulations, it's a boy". I hear those tiny little cries as he lifts my son over the blue drape so I can see his face. He is perfect and he is beautiful and most importantly, he is mine.
Then I wake up.
Tears begin to flow.
It was only a dream.
It was not meant to be.
You see, I delivered my son, Jonathan, stillborn on August 12, 2010, not January 27, 2011. I would have never guessed back in May when I learned I was pregnant that today I would be lying in a bed in a hotel room instead of in the hospital.
I am thrilled to be at Blissdom, but it is bitter sweet. It's a reminder to me that I do not have my baby boy. God knew all this. He knows my future and He loves me so. That is what I cling to. My hope is that one day this will not be a dream. It will be reality.
Surgery Update
First of all, I am overwhelmed and humbled by your kind words and prayers. I have read all of your comments and I can't thank you enough for going to the Father on my behalf. Thank you, Thank you.
Surgery will be scheduled for 2:30 (CST) today. I do have a bit of an update and some good news. My doctor called last night to tell me that my HCG levels came back at 4. Through all the years of infertility and loss, I never thought I would be so happy to hear that my HCG level was so low. For once 50,000 was not the number I desired. That would have meant a molar pregnancy a.k.a. Trophoblastic disease which is not something I, nor my doctor, wanted to have happen. I could tell by Dr. T's voice he was thrilled. Thank you Lord for answering that prayer.
There is however, still a huge mass in my uterus. What it is they don't know, but it has to come out. So Brian and I will head to the hospital this afternoon while the girls are in school. My prayer is that there will be minimal bleeding during the procedure, that they will get all of it, and that my recovery will be easy. It's been a long 5 weeks of feeling horrible and that's just physically. I want to start healing emotionally from the pain of losing my sweet son.
I want to share with you some scriptures that were prayed over me last night that brought me such peace. There may be someone reading this who is going through the same thing right now and you need physical healing. I pray these scriptures will speak to your heart and bring you peace.
Psalm 103:1-5
1 Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
Psalm 46:2-5
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
Surgery will be scheduled for 2:30 (CST) today. I do have a bit of an update and some good news. My doctor called last night to tell me that my HCG levels came back at 4. Through all the years of infertility and loss, I never thought I would be so happy to hear that my HCG level was so low. For once 50,000 was not the number I desired. That would have meant a molar pregnancy a.k.a. Trophoblastic disease which is not something I, nor my doctor, wanted to have happen. I could tell by Dr. T's voice he was thrilled. Thank you Lord for answering that prayer.
There is however, still a huge mass in my uterus. What it is they don't know, but it has to come out. So Brian and I will head to the hospital this afternoon while the girls are in school. My prayer is that there will be minimal bleeding during the procedure, that they will get all of it, and that my recovery will be easy. It's been a long 5 weeks of feeling horrible and that's just physically. I want to start healing emotionally from the pain of losing my sweet son.
I want to share with you some scriptures that were prayed over me last night that brought me such peace. There may be someone reading this who is going through the same thing right now and you need physical healing. I pray these scriptures will speak to your heart and bring you peace.
Psalm 103:1-5
1 Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
Psalm 46:2-5
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
I desperately need your prayers
I'm tired and don't have the energy to send out an email and make sure I get everyone included so this is the easiest way to let you know I am in urgent need of your prayers.
Complications have arose from my pregnancy with our son Jonathan. If you are reading my blog for the first time, I was 16 weeks pregnant with a baby boy, when we found out our baby's heart stopped beating. I was sent to the hospital to be induced and had our son on August 12th. You can read about that here.
I have not been feeling well physically since then. I'm extremely tired and have been having pains in my stomach. I won't go into too much detail but I knew something was wrong. I called Dr. T last night and he told me to come in today for an ultrasound.
The ultrasound showed very thick endrometrial lining and also what possibly looks to be small tumors. He explained that I could have Trophoblastic Disease of pregnancy. I'll let you all look that one up. I refrain because I just don't need to go there in my mind. What I do know is this. Tomorrow I will be admitted to the hospital for a D&C. This is not your typical D&C, is there really such a thing? It's much more complicated than that. My dr. wants to have a partner in the operating room with him, if that tells you anything. There is a risk of severe bleeding which would need a transfusion and worst case scenario, hysterectomy. I am believing neither of these things will happen.
Am I scared? Absolutely. Do I know the Lord can bring me peace. You bet I do, but it's only going to come through prayer. I would really appreciate it and I know so would Brian. Please pray for the girls. They know mommy doesn't feel good and it is scary because they don't really know what's going on. This morning when Sydney woke up the first thing she said, "Mommy are you still sick? Did your owie go away in your tummy"? I just told her not yet, but that Jesus was going to heal mommy.
I have dear friends coming to the house tonight to pray over me at 7:00. Would you pray with us wherever you are at 7:00 (CST)? Satan has to bow at the name of Jesus. He has no power or authority over Him. The enemy has been defeated, Praise God! Thank you so much. My story isn't done yet.
Psalm 91
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. [a]
2 I will say [b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-
10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."
Complications have arose from my pregnancy with our son Jonathan. If you are reading my blog for the first time, I was 16 weeks pregnant with a baby boy, when we found out our baby's heart stopped beating. I was sent to the hospital to be induced and had our son on August 12th. You can read about that here.
I have not been feeling well physically since then. I'm extremely tired and have been having pains in my stomach. I won't go into too much detail but I knew something was wrong. I called Dr. T last night and he told me to come in today for an ultrasound.
The ultrasound showed very thick endrometrial lining and also what possibly looks to be small tumors. He explained that I could have Trophoblastic Disease of pregnancy. I'll let you all look that one up. I refrain because I just don't need to go there in my mind. What I do know is this. Tomorrow I will be admitted to the hospital for a D&C. This is not your typical D&C, is there really such a thing? It's much more complicated than that. My dr. wants to have a partner in the operating room with him, if that tells you anything. There is a risk of severe bleeding which would need a transfusion and worst case scenario, hysterectomy. I am believing neither of these things will happen.
Am I scared? Absolutely. Do I know the Lord can bring me peace. You bet I do, but it's only going to come through prayer. I would really appreciate it and I know so would Brian. Please pray for the girls. They know mommy doesn't feel good and it is scary because they don't really know what's going on. This morning when Sydney woke up the first thing she said, "Mommy are you still sick? Did your owie go away in your tummy"? I just told her not yet, but that Jesus was going to heal mommy.
I have dear friends coming to the house tonight to pray over me at 7:00. Would you pray with us wherever you are at 7:00 (CST)? Satan has to bow at the name of Jesus. He has no power or authority over Him. The enemy has been defeated, Praise God! Thank you so much. My story isn't done yet.
Psalm 91
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. [a]
2 I will say [b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-
10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."
Gift of God
A Son. Wow how I have longed for the day I would be able to say those words. This announcement is not printed up on a pretty piece of paper like I had envisioned it would have been. However, that doesn't make it any less important. I am a mom and my husband is a dad to an amazing little boy. Let me introduce you to:
Jonathan Andrew Lord born August 12, 2010.
Jonathan means, "Gift of God". It also has special meaning for me because he is named after my amazing dad John. Andrew means "Warrior". It is also a family name on the Lord side. We thought it was a perfect name for our first son.
The labor went as well as to be expected and was pain free. That was an amazing answer to prayer. About an hour before delivery my body began to shake violently and I couldn't control it. This lasted for about 30 min. I knew my body was getting ready to deliver my precious baby. Right before 5 pm our son was born.
This was not the way it was supposed to be. He should have come out screaming and instead he was silent. He should have been 8 lbs like the girls were, instead he was just a few ounces. No matter what, he was our son. After having 3 girls, he was the son we had prayed and believed God for for 2 years. The brother the girls had prayed for and couldn't wait to play with. They will not have that chance and my heart just aches for them. They are processing it in their own way and I know they will be the much needed healing for our souls.
I want to say a huge thank you for those that have prayed for us. Prayers have been offered up all over the country for us and I can't thank you enough. Know they are felt and it will be those prayers that will sustain us in the coming weeks and months. We've been down this road before with our precious daughter Zoe so we know how hard it will be.
Thank you Brandy for watching the girls while we were at our doctors. Thank you Sonya for keeping the girls while we were in the hospital. Thank you Mandy for coming and sitting with me in the hospital while I was out of it and doped up on Morphine. Your friendships are invaluable and I will always treasure them.
Thank you to my family. They have walked this journey with us before and I know their heart aches to see us in so much pain again. Thanks dad for staying the night with the girls and for being a great papa to them. Thanks Stace for bringing them to the hospital tonight to visit us and for taking them home. Sorry Sydney screamed the whole way home. Rachelle, Jamie and mom, thanks for coming by the hospital to sit with us. Your presence meant the world to us. Mom and Ro I know it was hard to sit there and watch me physically shake and cry. Thank you for praying for me during that time. Heather I know you wished you could be there and know that I understand and I was glad you were at home taking care of your husband. I love you all.
Finally to my husband. I am amazed by your strength. You are my rock when I need you the most. I don't know what I would do without you. You are the love of my life and who would have ever believed the pain we would have to endure when we said "I Do" over 9 years ago. For better or for worse, in sickness and in health, I will love you forever. You are an amazing husband and father and we are so blessed to have you in our lives.
Lord, thank you for my son Jonathan and my daughter Zoe. Thank you for giving me the privilege of carrying them for the time I was allotted. Thank you that Zoe now has her little brother to play with there in Heaven. Wow what an awesome sight that must be. Thank you for my 4 children, Zoe, Brooklyn, Sydney and Jonathan. I am one blessed mom indeed.
Aug 12, from Jesus Calling devotional. "Come to me when you are weak and weary. Rest snugly in My everlasting arms. I do not despise your weakness, My child. Actually it draws Me closer to you, because weakness stirs up My compassion-My yearning to help. Accept yourself in your weariness, knowing that I understand how difficult your journey has been".
Jonathan Andrew Lord born August 12, 2010.
Jonathan means, "Gift of God". It also has special meaning for me because he is named after my amazing dad John. Andrew means "Warrior". It is also a family name on the Lord side. We thought it was a perfect name for our first son.
The labor went as well as to be expected and was pain free. That was an amazing answer to prayer. About an hour before delivery my body began to shake violently and I couldn't control it. This lasted for about 30 min. I knew my body was getting ready to deliver my precious baby. Right before 5 pm our son was born.
This was not the way it was supposed to be. He should have come out screaming and instead he was silent. He should have been 8 lbs like the girls were, instead he was just a few ounces. No matter what, he was our son. After having 3 girls, he was the son we had prayed and believed God for for 2 years. The brother the girls had prayed for and couldn't wait to play with. They will not have that chance and my heart just aches for them. They are processing it in their own way and I know they will be the much needed healing for our souls.
I want to say a huge thank you for those that have prayed for us. Prayers have been offered up all over the country for us and I can't thank you enough. Know they are felt and it will be those prayers that will sustain us in the coming weeks and months. We've been down this road before with our precious daughter Zoe so we know how hard it will be.
Thank you Brandy for watching the girls while we were at our doctors. Thank you Sonya for keeping the girls while we were in the hospital. Thank you Mandy for coming and sitting with me in the hospital while I was out of it and doped up on Morphine. Your friendships are invaluable and I will always treasure them.
Thank you to my family. They have walked this journey with us before and I know their heart aches to see us in so much pain again. Thanks dad for staying the night with the girls and for being a great papa to them. Thanks Stace for bringing them to the hospital tonight to visit us and for taking them home. Sorry Sydney screamed the whole way home. Rachelle, Jamie and mom, thanks for coming by the hospital to sit with us. Your presence meant the world to us. Mom and Ro I know it was hard to sit there and watch me physically shake and cry. Thank you for praying for me during that time. Heather I know you wished you could be there and know that I understand and I was glad you were at home taking care of your husband. I love you all.
Finally to my husband. I am amazed by your strength. You are my rock when I need you the most. I don't know what I would do without you. You are the love of my life and who would have ever believed the pain we would have to endure when we said "I Do" over 9 years ago. For better or for worse, in sickness and in health, I will love you forever. You are an amazing husband and father and we are so blessed to have you in our lives.
Lord, thank you for my son Jonathan and my daughter Zoe. Thank you for giving me the privilege of carrying them for the time I was allotted. Thank you that Zoe now has her little brother to play with there in Heaven. Wow what an awesome sight that must be. Thank you for my 4 children, Zoe, Brooklyn, Sydney and Jonathan. I am one blessed mom indeed.
Aug 12, from Jesus Calling devotional. "Come to me when you are weak and weary. Rest snugly in My everlasting arms. I do not despise your weakness, My child. Actually it draws Me closer to you, because weakness stirs up My compassion-My yearning to help. Accept yourself in your weariness, knowing that I understand how difficult your journey has been".
A Day of Mourning
I was supposed to do an update tomorrow about week 16 of my pregnancy. That will not happen. I can't believe I am even typing this. It's all too surreal. I wish I could close my eyes and wake up to find it was all a dream.
I have a doppler at home. A very good one. One that I used with my pregnancies with Brooklyn and Sydney. After we lost our sweet Zoe, I needed to have that when I was pregnant with Brooklyn to be reassured on days I was having a rough time believing she would be ok.
I flew home yesterday from a great weekend in California. I was anxious to get home and use the doppler so I could hear my baby's heartbeat. Usually it only takes a minute or two to find it, but yesterday that didn't happen. I tried for over an hour several time throughout the afternoon and evening. Even Brian tried and we just couldn't hear it. I really started to get nervous. I knew I would call the dr in the morning to go in and see if they could find it.
I knew in my heart something was wrong. I went to see my doctor around 9:30 this morning and the ultrasound showed our baby alive. The heartbeat was showing signs of arrhythmia and so my doctor sent me directly to my high risk OB.
When I got to the office of our high risk OB they took us back to the ultrasound room. The tech proceeded to look over the baby. Brian and I both strained to see if there was a heartbeat and we saw none. She zoomed in and I saw stillness. She then left the room. Flashbacks of almost 6 years ago flooded my mind and I couldn't cry. I couldn't believe the similarities.
I started to sing, "Father I adore you and I lay my life before you, how I love you". Then we sang, "I love you Lord and I lift my voice to worship you oh my soul rejoice. Take joy my king in what you hear and may it be a sweet, sweet sound in your ear". Brian and I just sang quietly to our Lord. It was a sweet time.
The doctor walked in and I just said, "We Know". He just kept saying how sorry he was. He is such a sweet man and I knew he truly meant it.
My next question, like I did with Zoe was, "What's next"? I just had to know. Could they do a D&C? He said that I was too far along for that. Oh Lord no. Not again. Please God. My next question was if I had to have a c-section because that is what I had had with the girls. Thankfully he said no.
I have done alot of crying and questioning why? It just doesn't make sense. Why us? Why another child? I know that God understands these questions and that they are ok to ask. I know there will be more questions to come. For now I rest in the One who holds all the answers.
I am scheduled to be induced tomorrow morning at 7:30. We were hoping to get into the hospital today but there were no rooms available. God's timing is perfect and I rest in that. I would love your prayers for the delivery. I have an idea of what to expect, but I know anything can happen. Pray specifically for no side effects from the epidural, that the baby would come out easily with no need for lots of pushes and for a speedy recovery for me physically. I will experience all the things that any woman would experience after delivery, all without the joy of holding my newborn.
Tomorrow I will have the privilege and the honor of introducing you to my new son or daughter. One who was so loved by mommy, daddy, and two sisters.
Please be in prayer for the girls as they process this all. Sydney keeps saying, "I don't want the baby to die". She says it over and over. We have just told the girls that the baby is with Jesus and Zoe in Heaven.
Thank you to my family, friends and blog friends who have prayed and offered their love and support. I can't begin to tell you how much that means to me and my family.
Blessings to you all.
I have a doppler at home. A very good one. One that I used with my pregnancies with Brooklyn and Sydney. After we lost our sweet Zoe, I needed to have that when I was pregnant with Brooklyn to be reassured on days I was having a rough time believing she would be ok.
I flew home yesterday from a great weekend in California. I was anxious to get home and use the doppler so I could hear my baby's heartbeat. Usually it only takes a minute or two to find it, but yesterday that didn't happen. I tried for over an hour several time throughout the afternoon and evening. Even Brian tried and we just couldn't hear it. I really started to get nervous. I knew I would call the dr in the morning to go in and see if they could find it.
I knew in my heart something was wrong. I went to see my doctor around 9:30 this morning and the ultrasound showed our baby alive. The heartbeat was showing signs of arrhythmia and so my doctor sent me directly to my high risk OB.
When I got to the office of our high risk OB they took us back to the ultrasound room. The tech proceeded to look over the baby. Brian and I both strained to see if there was a heartbeat and we saw none. She zoomed in and I saw stillness. She then left the room. Flashbacks of almost 6 years ago flooded my mind and I couldn't cry. I couldn't believe the similarities.
I started to sing, "Father I adore you and I lay my life before you, how I love you". Then we sang, "I love you Lord and I lift my voice to worship you oh my soul rejoice. Take joy my king in what you hear and may it be a sweet, sweet sound in your ear". Brian and I just sang quietly to our Lord. It was a sweet time.
The doctor walked in and I just said, "We Know". He just kept saying how sorry he was. He is such a sweet man and I knew he truly meant it.
My next question, like I did with Zoe was, "What's next"? I just had to know. Could they do a D&C? He said that I was too far along for that. Oh Lord no. Not again. Please God. My next question was if I had to have a c-section because that is what I had had with the girls. Thankfully he said no.
I have done alot of crying and questioning why? It just doesn't make sense. Why us? Why another child? I know that God understands these questions and that they are ok to ask. I know there will be more questions to come. For now I rest in the One who holds all the answers.
I am scheduled to be induced tomorrow morning at 7:30. We were hoping to get into the hospital today but there were no rooms available. God's timing is perfect and I rest in that. I would love your prayers for the delivery. I have an idea of what to expect, but I know anything can happen. Pray specifically for no side effects from the epidural, that the baby would come out easily with no need for lots of pushes and for a speedy recovery for me physically. I will experience all the things that any woman would experience after delivery, all without the joy of holding my newborn.
Tomorrow I will have the privilege and the honor of introducing you to my new son or daughter. One who was so loved by mommy, daddy, and two sisters.
Please be in prayer for the girls as they process this all. Sydney keeps saying, "I don't want the baby to die". She says it over and over. We have just told the girls that the baby is with Jesus and Zoe in Heaven.
Thank you to my family, friends and blog friends who have prayed and offered their love and support. I can't begin to tell you how much that means to me and my family.
Blessings to you all.
Pregnancy Update-Week 15
Today we had an ultrasound appointment to see if we could find out the sex, but our little peanut didn't want to cooperate. The baby had it's legs closed and wouldn't move them so we will wait until Sept 8th for the 20 week ultrasound. Little peanut better show us his/her stuff. :)
I am headed on a plane tomorrow morning to Southern California. I cannot wait to hit 70 degree weather, but more importantly to see all my friends and my family. It's my 20 year H.S. reunion (gasp) and I am so excited to see my friends that I went to school with and have reconnected through Facebook. I am also going to visit my 91 year old grandma. I can't wait to see her sweet face. I miss her so much.
I'm praying all goes well at home with Brian and the girls. I think this will be the longest I have ever been away from Brooklyn & Sydney, 5 days and 4 nights. I'm sure by Monday night I will be ready to get on that plane to come home. It will be a good break for me though. I am very much looking forward to it.
So on with the update:
How Far Along: 15 Weeks
Total Weight Gain: 9 pounds
Maternity Clothes: I am in my maternity pants, but not tops yet.
Best Moment this week: Seeing my little one today.
Gender: Not yet. Hopefully on Sept 8th.
Movement: None yet
Food Craving: Mexican Food and Pink Snowballs (strange I know)
What I miss: Being able to walk up the stairs and not be out of breath
Sleep: I'm already having to use the bathroom three times a night.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out the sex
Belly Button: In and will probably stay that way. It never popped out in my previous pregnancies, but I guess there is a first for everything.
Stretch Marks: I have them on my hips, but never got them on my belly. Hope it stays that way. Symptoms: Migraines, YUCK!
Pregnancy Update- Week 14
Before I update on my pregnancy, I wanted to give you an update since my last post on Tuesday. I was able to talk to Brian yesterday and today. YEAH! His phone still doesn't work, but his friend Jacob's does, so I am able to call him on his phone. I call him everyday around 12:15 when I know they are on a lunch break. It is so good to hear his voice.
They are all doing great. Working really hard. It's about 100 degrees there and they are hauling 25 pound cinder blocks up and down the steps to make the house. They were on their 4th wall today. They have one more work day tomorrow and then they will get to do some sightseeing on Saturday. They will head home on Sunday morning. The girls and I can't wait to have him home.
(Taken with my iPhone so it's not the best in the world. You can also see what Sydney did to the trim on the curtains in the background. ha)
Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 14 Weeks
Total Weight Gain: 3 pounds
Maternity Clothes: I actually had to get my maternity jeans out of storage already. Crazy how early I popped with my fourth.
Best Moment this week: Brian hearing the baby's heartbeat before leaving for Haiti.
Gender: Hoping to find out next Thursday
Movement: None yet
Food Craving: Mexican Food and Pink Snowballs (strange I know)
What I miss: Being able to walk up the stairs and not be out of breath
Sleep: I'm already having to use the bathroom three times a night.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out the sex
Belly Button: In and will probably stay that way. It never popped out in my previous pregnancies, but I guess there is a first for everything.
Stretch Marks: I have them on my hips, but never got them on my belly. Hope it stays that way. Symptoms: Migraines, YUCK!
They are all doing great. Working really hard. It's about 100 degrees there and they are hauling 25 pound cinder blocks up and down the steps to make the house. They were on their 4th wall today. They have one more work day tomorrow and then they will get to do some sightseeing on Saturday. They will head home on Sunday morning. The girls and I can't wait to have him home.
(Taken with my iPhone so it's not the best in the world. You can also see what Sydney did to the trim on the curtains in the background. ha)Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 14 Weeks
Total Weight Gain: 3 pounds
Maternity Clothes: I actually had to get my maternity jeans out of storage already. Crazy how early I popped with my fourth.
Best Moment this week: Brian hearing the baby's heartbeat before leaving for Haiti.
Gender: Hoping to find out next Thursday
Movement: None yet
Food Craving: Mexican Food and Pink Snowballs (strange I know)
What I miss: Being able to walk up the stairs and not be out of breath
Sleep: I'm already having to use the bathroom three times a night.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out the sex
Belly Button: In and will probably stay that way. It never popped out in my previous pregnancies, but I guess there is a first for everything.
Stretch Marks: I have them on my hips, but never got them on my belly. Hope it stays that way. Symptoms: Migraines, YUCK!
Pregnancy Update-Week 13
I am so thrilled to finally be in my 2nd trimester. Thank you Jesus! I am praying that the migraines that have been plaguing me will finally go away. Last night I resorted to a Coke, which I never drink, just to see if that would help. Sure enough, it did.
Pregnancy Highlights:
Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 13 Weeks
Total Weight Gain: 3 pounds
Maternity Clothes: I actually had to get my maternity jeans out of storage already. Crazy how early I popped with my fourth.
Best Moment this week: Hearing the baby's heartbeat
Gender: Hoping to find out August 5th
Movement: None yet
Food Craving: Mexican Food and Pink Snowballs (strange I know)
What I miss: Being able to walk up the stairs and not be out of breath
Sleep: I'm already having to use the bathroom three times a night.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out the sex
Belly Button: In and will probably stay that way. It never popped out in my previous pregnancies, but I guess there is a first for everything.
Stretch Marks: I have them on my hips, but never got them on my belly. Hope it stays that way. Symptoms: Migraines, YUCK!
Pregnancy Update
I decided to do a weekly update since I didn't have a blog when I was pregnant with the girls. I thought it would be a neat thing to do this time around so I can see my progress. I plan to post a photo this weekend. I just haven't had time to take one.
Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 12 Weeks
Total Weight Gain: 0 pounds
Maternity Clothes: I actually had to get my maternity jeans out of storage already. Crazy how early I popped with my fourth.
Best Moment this week: Getting to take a nap
Gender: Hoping to find out August 5th
Movement: None yet
Food Craving: Mexican Food and Pink Snowballs (strange I know)
What I miss: Being able to walk up the stairs and not be out of breath
Sleep: I'm already having to use the bathroom three times a night.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out the sex
Food Craving: Mexican Food and Pink Snowballs (strange I know)
What I miss: Being able to walk up the stairs and not be out of breath
Sleep: I'm already having to use the bathroom three times a night.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out the sex
Belly Button: In and will probably stay that way. It never popped out in my previous pregnancies, but I guess there is a first for everything.
Stretch Marks: I have them on my hips, but never got them on my belly. Hope it stays that way. Symptoms: Lower back pain and headaches. Had to get a prescription for the headaches.
Stretch Marks: I have them on my hips, but never got them on my belly. Hope it stays that way. Symptoms: Lower back pain and headaches. Had to get a prescription for the headaches.
Can't think of a creative title
I apologize that I haven't blogged in about a week. I can't believe it. I am so thankful for this pregnancy, but it has been tough on me. My hardest one yet. Maybe because 3 years have passed since I was pregnant with Sydney and I am not a spring chick anymore. I don't know, but I am just so tired I don't want to do much of anything, including blogging. I've had some nausea which I've never had before either. I'm thankful that for the most part that has subsided.
I'm feeling guilty. Guilty that my house is such a mess, that I've snapped at my children more than once, that I don't feel like cooking so I call up Brian on his way home from work to pick something up, that I've been too tired to blog and upload my pictures from our vacation to Disneyworld and the list goes on and on. I know this is only for a season, but I am a doer by nature and when I don't feel like doing anything I feel lazy. I have to remind myself that the most important thing is to take care of myself and the baby.
Speaking of baby, I go to my high risk OB for the first time on Wednesday. I'm hoping he will do an ultrasound so we can take a look at the little peanut. I saw a high risk OB after I had the 2 early miscarriages, one in June 08 and the other in Jan 09. After a ton of blood tests it was discovered that I had a gene mutation called MTHFR. Basically this gene mutation can cause a blood clot which sometimes can cause miscarriages. Before I got pregnant this time I was instructed to take a baby aspirin at night and 4000 extra milligrams of folic acid on top of my prenatal vitamins. I was also on Progesterone at the time we conceived which I think made all the difference. I will write more about that tomorrow. If you have been dealing with infertility sometimes a lack of progesterone is the cause for it.
Well I am going to go watch Cinderella III with Sydney Kate and enjoy some family time today.
I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend.
I'm feeling guilty. Guilty that my house is such a mess, that I've snapped at my children more than once, that I don't feel like cooking so I call up Brian on his way home from work to pick something up, that I've been too tired to blog and upload my pictures from our vacation to Disneyworld and the list goes on and on. I know this is only for a season, but I am a doer by nature and when I don't feel like doing anything I feel lazy. I have to remind myself that the most important thing is to take care of myself and the baby.
Speaking of baby, I go to my high risk OB for the first time on Wednesday. I'm hoping he will do an ultrasound so we can take a look at the little peanut. I saw a high risk OB after I had the 2 early miscarriages, one in June 08 and the other in Jan 09. After a ton of blood tests it was discovered that I had a gene mutation called MTHFR. Basically this gene mutation can cause a blood clot which sometimes can cause miscarriages. Before I got pregnant this time I was instructed to take a baby aspirin at night and 4000 extra milligrams of folic acid on top of my prenatal vitamins. I was also on Progesterone at the time we conceived which I think made all the difference. I will write more about that tomorrow. If you have been dealing with infertility sometimes a lack of progesterone is the cause for it.
Well I am going to go watch Cinderella III with Sydney Kate and enjoy some family time today.
I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend.
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