Yesterday I spent 5 hours down at the dr's office. I saw 2 different doctors. It was joyous. I had 2 more hours of testing done, which all came back normal. The new doctor, who is a PhD at Vanderbilt Hospital doesn't believe I have MdDS, like I was told by the doctor in Tampa, but something called Chronic Subjective Dizziness.
I've come to the point where I can care less what it's labeled, I just want it gone. I'm beyond frustrated. It's been 7 years, 7 long years and it just keeps getting worse. I really am at my wits end. I'm trying to stay positive. The second doctor yesterday gave me a medicine to start taking. He said about 80% of patients start to notice a difference and feel better. I pray with all that I have, I am in that percentage.
I would appreciate your prayers as I start the medication tomorrow. That I don't experience any side affects and that it will help relieve some of the constant spinning.
I was playing Scrabble with the girls tonight, before Brian got home from work, and I had all 4 of these tiles. HEAL.
I have to believe God for my healing. I know that His desire for me is to be well, whole and happy. Like everything that has happened to us over the last year and a half, I know He has a plan. I have to trust in that plan even though I don't know what it is.
I'll leave you with this Jesus Calling Devotional from March 12th. Is there something you are waiting and hoping for tonight?
Waiting, trusting, and hoping are intricately connected, like golden strands interwoven to form a strong chain. Trusting is the central strand, because it is the response from My children that I desire the most. Waiting and hoping embellish the central strand and strengthen the chain that connects you to Me. Waiting for Me to work, with your eyes on Me, is evidence that you really do trust Me. If you mouth the words “I trust You” while anxiously trying to make things go your way, your words ring hollow. Hoping is future-directed, connecting you to your inheritance in heaven. However, the benefits of hope fall fully on you in the present.
Because you are Mine, you don’t just pass time in your waiting. You can wait expectantly, in hopeful trust. Keep your “antennae” out to pick up even the faintest glimmer of My Presence.
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.”
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered to us may be greatly encouraged. We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where Jesus, who went before us, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek.