It all started with Sydney. For over 2 years now she has been praying for a baby brother or brothers. She has such a sweet sensitive heart and she loves little children. She is so good with young kids and it's a joy to watch her care for them. (Here she is reading to Ladd. This is such a beautiful picture to me because we helped Ladd's parents bring him home).
After we lost Jonathan over 5 years ago and after suffering from a ruptured ectopic pregnancy last year, the chances of getting pregnant and having a baby were slim to none. However, I do believe God can and still performs miracles, so I have always been open to that. I prayed that if that was not His plan for us that He would take the ache away. That longing to have another biological child finally went away, but not the desire to continue to grow our family. I often hear from women who say they had a peace in their hearts when they knew their family was completed. I have never had that peace. Brian and I both come from large families and that has always been our desire from the day we said "I do". We just never knew the heartache that would come trying to build our family.
I was thankful to have a music career in my twenties and early thirties. I always knew I wanted to be a singer. I am so thankful God blessed me with those years of ministry and being on the road. Those will always be some of the best years of my life. The only other job I ever wanted to have was that of wife and mom. I love being a mom and I love homeschooling and being home with my girls. Nothing brings me greater joy. I am molding and shaping my children and trying to raise young women who will follow and serve the Lord. It's exhausting and exhilarating all at the same time.
Am I nervous and scared about adopting, absolutely. Here's the deal though, nothing in life that is worth anything is ever easy and without sacrifice. Do I want to hyperventilate when I think about the fact that I will most likely have 8 year olds, when my girls go to college? Yes. I quickly have realized though that what God calls you to, He will provide the courage and the strength to do it. We aren't called to a comfortable life friends. We are called to care for the least of these. If you've adopted you know this verse very well. James 1:27 "Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world".
Room for More, Part 2 coming tomorrow......